Sunday, January 1, 2012

Finally Resolved

It's with a decent measure of chagrin and a shot of despair that I find I was resolved, back in January 2008, to improve my Malay to the point where I am reasonably functional and not just an embarrassing Englishman. I failed. My proficiency in my wife's mother tongue has, in all essentials, stood still since that time.

Aware as I was of the commitment, and its failure, I didn't seek for remedy in 2009, 2010 or 2011, though not completely neglecting some study of the language, as I reached the conclusion that there was an element of futility behind the resolution. Put simply: I was too busy at work to allow the time necessary for improvement in the language. And writing this I recognise a truth in the excuse. But it is an excuse, rather like the one I hear from colleagues who can't find the time to read as they are too busy. The answer is, of course, to make the time, even when it's almost impossible to do so, through something akin to habit.

Which means, in some sense, re-thinking one's life. Difficult in the extreme, but not quite impossible, something I discovered a long time ago - and which I am resolved to rediscover in a small (though trust me, this won't feel small) but important manner.

1 comment:

Trebuchet said...

It could be worse. You could be an ethnic Chinese who keeps resolving to improve his Mandarin to the point where he is reasonably functional and not just an embarrassing... Chinaman-whose-mother-tongue-is-English. *grin*

A happy new year to you and yours too, Brian!