On this date ten years ago I wrote this in my journal:
Recognising our neediness, and controlling
it, is important if we are to break out of ourselves. My neediness is as strong
as ever and will always be part of me. So I need to outwit it - it is, after
all, a profoundly immature part of myself. It helps to understand the fractured
nature of the self. The needy part is simply that - one part of a richer whole.
Funny to think what I thought I knew, yet couldn't quite deal with. I still know it; and am further than ever from the kind of control I then had in mind.