Remembering

Indulged in a lot of looking back this evening with Peter, Lia, Chris & Kishore, in addition to some excellent dishes at the Al Ameen Restaurant on Clementi Road. Was reminded of the fact that it's almost a full decade since Peter and myself had one heck of a good time putting together The Fantasticks. Not sure where we found the energy from to get a longish musical on stage that late in the year but can't recall feeling particularly stretched at the time. Looking back at what I wrote about it in this Far Place I certainly acknowledged feeling frazzled but seem more concerned about creating shameless publicity.

Now all Peter and I can remember is the simple enjoyment-cum-delight of it all both in the doing and the making. I suppose in a strange way we wish it were still going on. (Which it is, but only in our heads.)

All Quiet

Just got back from visiting Kak Kiah at the hospital. She looked comfortable, breathing easily; obviously well looked after by the nurses. In a good place.

Grabbed something to eat at the CBTL there. Realised this is my favourite version of that noble franchise, being the one Noi walked me down the hill to from the ward I was put in after my sojourn in ICU. What a moment of freedom that was back then. And in the now of the present it felt good to be back on an evening that was nothing special, just a quiet celebration of still being around and life going on in its unlikely way.

Happy Thoughts

Spent pretty much the full 60 minutes of my stint on the elliptical trainer engaged in a silent rant against my opponents in the War on Beauty. On completion of the stint, and attendant rant, It occurred to me that I hadn't exactly been doing anything particularly good for the World In General or my poor self over the hour in question.

So came back to listen for the second time to Vaughn William's one and only piano concerto. I have no idea why it took me some 40 years of fanboy worship of RVW to discover this beauty only today. But I'm glad I did and don't intend to stick around for an answer.

Beguiled

I started reading Stendhal's The Red and the Black back in early September and have only got as far as page 140 in the Penguin Classics edition. Quite embarrassingly slow progress I suppose, but only for someone capable of embarrassment. For my shameless self it's a matter of some amusement - as is the novel so far.

I thought that reading a 19C French classic would bear some resemblance to reading other classic novels of the century, whether they be French, Russian, German, American or British. This is not the case with Stendhal. He's not outrageously experimental in the vein of chaps like Sterne & Rabelais, who are sort of creating the form of the novel as a genre as they go along. But, as far as I can tell, he is doing something very different from all his contemporaries and doing it with extraordinary panache. So our hero, Julien Sorel - if he is a hero in any meaningful sense - is clearly going to have his story told a la David Copperfield, Maggie Tulliver, Rastignac, and Emma Bovary. But it's being told very differently and I can't articulate what the difference is. 

This reflects badly on me, I know, and possibly it's just a case of me being very slow and missing the point. But I'm having a fine old time doing so and am happily beguiled by every page. (I burst out laughing twice on page 138 and I'm not at all sure there are meant to be jokes in the text.)

Anyway, I'll probably try and write a bit more about this when (and if) I sort my confusions out. In the meantime I'll just crack on and pretend I know exactly what's happening.

Hardly Funny At All

I've enjoyed many a chuckle and quite a few giggles courtesy of the wit and wisdom of the estimable First Dog in the Moon. But today's cartoon just didn't do it for me, for some reason. Most likely because it wasn't supposed to.

No wonder I find it difficult to watch the news these days. Stop the world, please; I want to get off.

Not So Funny Anymore

Officially completed my rereading of Gazzaniga's Human this afternoon. Much to enjoy here & there, but I can't honestly say it deepened my knowledge of people's cognitive faculties in a systematic way. (My fault, not the writer's, I hasten to add.) Will probably go back a final time to the pages devoted to the nature of the arts, and to the segment on how we create a sense of the self from the various bits & pieces that arrive at our grey matter.

Realised that the last part of the book - looking to the future of our potential cognitive development as matters stood in the early 2000s - has very much dated. The segment on Artificial Intelligence especially seems from long, long ago. It also struck me that this is the place where the writer's propensity for wittily frivolous humour becomes distinctly tiresome. Now the future is upon us it seems anything but laughable. 

To Rest In Peace

We were at the Pusara Abadi Muslim Cemetery this afternoon for the burial of Sanusi, Kak Kiah's son-in-law, who died quite unexpectedly this morning. We'd last seen him in the middle of the week on a visit to see his mother-in-law at NUH. He hadn't looked well then, being very thin and obviously under the weather, complaining of the flu; nothing like his usual cheerful self. But there was nothing to suggest what happened today. He collapsed this morning, dying, I assume, of a heart attack.

Can't imagine the degree of grief felt by Aida, his wife. First her mother's dreadful stroke and now this loss. Good to see the family gathering around in necessary support.

It's difficult to see anything at all positive in all this. But Noi rightfully pointed out to me as we were exiting the cemetery, having visited the graves of Nosiah's father & brother before leaving, that it's a place of deep calm and peace. I always feel a strange kind of hopefulness there.

Peace In Our Time

A happily rambunctious morning today, nicely contrasted by a richly peaceful Friday Prayers at the masjid on the hill. 

Learned a new Arab saying from the khutbah: One who does not possess something cannot give it to others. The implication is that if we lack peace in our hearts it's impossible to offer it to others. That's pretty wise, I reckon, and meditating upon the insight in itself contributed to the richness of the experience. And the silences between words of weight helped.

(The teh tarik & vadai that followed provided a slightly different kind of peace.)

(And just to get a bit more rambunctious about all this, for anyone who disagrees with the above I can assure you there is nothing at all funny about peace, love & understanding.)

Embracing Uncertainties

It's that time of year when some people in my line of work start planning in earnest, whilst the remainder stay fixed in the unforgiving present. As ever, I find myself on the wrong side of the divide. Or possibly the right side. You never really know, do you?

Time For A Moan

Today's been a day about me, me, me to an even greater extent than usual. Let me tell you why. I woke up around the dead centre of the night with a pretty bad ache running down the left side of my neck. It felt like the sciatic pain I sometimes have to deal with on my left leg and lower back had decided to migrate upwards. (Complete nonsense medically, of course, but it felt that way.) I thought the ache might subside. But it didn't. It evolved over the course of a restless hour or so into a grimace-inducing genuine pain, until I just had to get up and find some Panadol, with Noi supplying the necessary water. It was about two hours to dawn and I lay just about coping with a slightly subsiding ache. And then day officially arrived.

I'll not say anymore - because it's so boring - but I got through the necessary with the assistance of further pain-killers - the ones in the extra strong red packet. And now my neck feels a bit better, thanks.

Shakespeare has a great line about toothache in Much Ado, but I'm struggling to remember it. Not the bit where Benedick makes an excuse of having the toothache. I mean the For there was never yet philosopher that could endure the toothache patiently. (Just googled it.) Well, it's even more true about a pain in the neck.